Berries, please.

Quote of the day :

The biggest lie I tell myself is "I don't need to write that down, I'll remember it." - Anonymous

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I have very poor memory. I think it's an early sign of Alzheimer since my maternal grandmother had it and my mom calls me Gigi sometimes. Gigi is our 14 year old miniature pincher btw. Very sad lah when your mom calls you by the name of your pet dog T_T I won't feel as hurt if she mixed up my name with any of my three siblings but A DOG? Seriously? I love Gigi but doesn't mean I don't feel offended ok?

Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that Alzheimer runs in my family. So is cancer FMLtripplemax. My aunt in England had breast cancer while my paternal grandmother had bone cancer..or something cancerous.. sorry I was only 12 when she lost the battle :( Anyway, that's story for another day.

Okay, as I was saying, I have the memory of an 80 year old so much so that I really feel annoyed with myself sometimes when I couldn't remember something. Here are a few examples :

Scenario 1 :

Couldn't find my phone,

Me : Isabelle, where is mummy's phone??
Isabelle : Ah phone ar? *baby talk, baby talk, points at the floor, more baby talk*
Me : Where is it? Where did you take mummy's phone to???
Isabelle : *nods, baby talk, doing hand gestures, baby talk*
Me : Where is ittttttttt???! Why do you always take mummy's phone and simply place it?? You're so naughty you know! Find it quick! (Yes, I sent my 2yo on a phone searching mission wtf)

After searching frantically for 10 minutes, I found my phone on the kitchen cabinet. Had to apologize to Isabelle for jumping down her throat for something she didn't do =.=

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Scenario 2 :

Got into the passenger seat,

Me : Amberly has lost the spare keys. I've told you not to give it to her. She's a child, she's not capable of safeguarding it.
Mister : Amber, you lost your spare keys??? Didn't I told you to keep it in your schoolbag???? How did you lose it?
Amberly : *Looks at us innocently* I did! I didn't take it out until when I reached home to open the door. I never lose it at school! The last time I used it to open the door then it's not with me anymore..

At this point I suddenly remembered I've seen it somewhere at home. Quickly tries to change subject.

Me : What are we having for dinner?

When we got home, I found the spare keys in the key holder box. Had to apologize to Amberly FML.

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Scenario 3 :

Happened just now - Found one of my bra pad on the floor :

Me : *Holding bra pad in hand* Dear, have you seen my another bra pad? It's a set, there's two pieces.
Mister : Uh, no.

I searched the toilet, master bedroom, kid's room, dining table but still couldn't find it. I got sidetracked after awhile and decided to put the electronic piano back to it's usual spot and when I lift the piano up, one bra pad dropped on the floor. (They're stick on bra pads for my monokini that I never got to wear because my plan to go to Phuket last June got cancelled. I then decided to try them on when I brought the kids for swimming this evening wtf. Isabelle must've mess around with it)

Mister : Ah there, your bra pad. *points to the floor where it landed*
Me : Oh okay. *pick it up and goes into the master bedroom where I thought I've placed the earlier bra pad on my make up station but couldn't find it. Proceeds to go around the house finding for the first bra pad but it was nowhere to be seen FMLtripplemax*
Me : Dear, where is my first bra pad? The one I was holding just now?
Mister : -____________________________-

At last, after I've given up finding, reassuring myself that it will show up eventually, the mister found it near the exit to our balcony. He picked it up and says "Ugh. What's this?? You wore a bra pad to go swimming at our condo's swimming pool? Got people go already meh??"

Heheh

This is getting old

Quote of the day :

Some of the worst mistakes in my life were haircuts - Jim Morrison

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True story. I've ALWAYS had bad experiences with saloons. Just when I stop going to the saloon because I'd rather just live with a long unkempt hair, I would listen to my inner bitch and give it another try. Only to regret it deeply later and be devastated with the outcome. I've come to the conclusion that my bad experience with saloons are caused by my lack of effort in maintaining my hair thus I don't really care about the credibility of the saloon that I go to.

For instance, there was this time when I went to this saloon recommended by a guy friend for rebonding and coloring (I know right, very bad for hair but when I asked the stylist, he said it's fine as long as I do hair treatment after that. Fucker lied.) Long story short, it took me a whole SEVEN HOURS, THREE TRAINEE STYLISTS AND A VERY NUMB BUTT to get everything done. Thankfully, Isabelle wasn't born yet and Amberly wasn't with me. By the end of the day, my scalp was burning and hurting like a bitch I couldn't take it anymore I asked them to rinse off right away! Otherwise it would probably took longer than that. I skipped the treatment, paid, and scurried out of the saloon with a very damaged hair and burning scalp. And I swear to never step into that saloon EVER again or listen to any recommendation given by men. Damn you, Johnny! That was the last time I leave my hair in the hands of strangers.

Until my hair grew long and I got bored of it. Again.

Two and a half year ago, I managed to ignored my hair until it reaches my waist. I was very very pregnant with Isabelle then and me and the mister had had a fight and were in the midst of making up when he suggested that I cut my hair shorter so that I won't feel hot during the one month confinement. Truth is, I don't want to. But because I was too egoistic so I just half-ignored-half-agreed. The next thing I know, I'm in his favorite saloon located at some old flat (slightly better than the ah neh barber who cut under the big tree for 5ringgit one wtf) watching in horror as my hair got chopped of in one shot. Like cutting ribbon ceremony wtf. I wanted to scream and grab the scissors from him and create a mass murder scene there but I was too pregnant and too cool like that I just..let.him. Before I knew it, I look like Rosie O-donnell after she quits her talk show in 2002.

No, I'm not exaggerating. Really laidis. 

I lived with that hair for two years before it grew to a more can-go-out-and-meet-people-again-liao length and then I just kinda ignored it for another half year until it finally reached my waist again. And then last week I have this raging urge to go get a hair makeover after watching too much Youtube videos of pretty Youtubers with hairs to kill for. After much considerations and dilemmas, I've decided to go for this :

Perfect length and easy to maintain. Perfect for vain mothers with little time for grooming a.k.a moi

So I went into this saloon. Sat down and show her this picture and chose the color that I want to dye which is blue black. Sat back and chat away happily while she try to achieve the look that I want. When she's done, I look into the mirror and was horrified by what I saw : 

Yep, that was me after crying my eyes out as soon as I reached home (and yes, no make up except for smudged eyeliners). You know how tonging your hair always helps to make it look better even if you're having a bad hair day? Well, this was after tonging. Will show pictures of after coming out of shower and natural dried hair later.

But you see, the problem with me is that I can be overly nice to people sometimes. I care about their feelings more than mine even after getting my hair totally sabotaged I still care about how they feel. So I hint to her politely that I didn't like it but she kept on convincing me that "it's very nice ah! suitable for you! (dafug?)". I would say the most fucked up part is when I pay and even signed up for membership. 

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU, BITCH? 

The moment I reach home I was in such a mess I picked a fight with the mister and yelled hysterically at him for calling me TWICE when I was at the saloon before I picked up my phone and dialed Ally's number (my bff) and continue crying and sobbing. The conversation went laidis :

Ally : Helloo.... *in chirpy mood*

Me : *still crying* This is all your fault! Why must you have disagreement with your partner over some account problem and decided to close your saloon?!!! It's your fault you bitch your faultttttttttttt $#$%%^@!!@#$#!!

Ally : Erm. What happened? *stoned voice*

Me : I just had the worst hair makeover in my 27 years and now I look like a chao ah lian!!!!!!!!!! *crying more hysterically at the thought of chao ah lian*

Ally : Huh??? Are you seriously like.. crying?

Me : Do I sound like I'm laughing?????? Omg how do I fix this~!! How????? *even the thought of kissing Ian Somerhalder cannot calm me down at this moment*

Ally : Okay... you calm down first okay? We can fix this one.. You send me a picture of your hair now and I will tell you what to do.
Me : There's no way to fix thissss! There's practically no more hair left at the bottom and I don't want to cut my hair short so there's no more wayyyyy~ I will have to hide in the house until 2015!!! *at this point I started to just lose control of myself completely at the thought of only able to come out of hiding when I'm already old and wrinkled*
Ally : Nono.. trust me, can fix one.. even the worst haircut is fixable. Right now, take a picture and send to me. Okay?
Me : *stops crying* Okay. *sobs*

After hanging up, I went to snap that picture above and send to her on Whatsapp. After alot of swearings and cursings from her at the lady who turned my hair into a disaster, she suggested that I get a clip on extension. For awhile I actually stop feeling hopeless and we were discussing about which type of extension to get before I finally dozed off.

The next day after washing my hair T_T 

(Sorry face too disturbing to show here after whole night of crying)

Anyway, I went to the saloon the next day after gathering enough courage to complaint and after much apologies from them, they agreed to help me to get a clip on extension with their supplier price. I had to go back two days later to try on the extension which is freaking expensive like RM270!! I then remembered that I actually have clip on extension at home -__________-. They offered to help me dye it since it's brown in color but up until today I have not have the time to bring it to them to get the job done fmlmax.

In the end, I had to celebrate Isabelle's 2nd birthday (we decided to do a small celebration at home the night before) and the following days in this hideous hair T_T Sigh.

Birthday celebration at home. Happy Birthday, sweetie! 

Why are you growing up so fast T_T

Too eager to taste the cake. Lols.

So coincidentally, Ally was down with her new bf (show off!) on Isabelle's birthday. She's been craving for cheese lobster since the last time she was here which was 10 years ago so we brought them to Bali Hai for dinner. Major mistake.

The place was a rip-off. Actually we know but we honestly didn't expect it to be THIS expensive. I could get the same lobster, probably even bigger for just a little over RM100 at Teluk Bahang. Initially, we wanted to go to Teluk Bahang but changed our mind as it was raining and we didn't want to drive up as the roads are slippery. Sigh.

The following night, we went to this place called 69 by the beach located at Batu Feringhi. I've always wanted to go since it opened but didn't have the chance. Finally, we went but I must say I'm a little disappointed as the place was quite deserted the whole night and it was Friday! I guess now everyone lepaks at Soju Room. We didn't want to go to Soju because we wanted to have someplace where we can just chill and yak. Well, wish granted -_- Btw, see how hideous my hair is??? The whole night I was so conscious about my hair I tied and untied and tied again because I couldn't make up my mind which one was less uglier fmldoublemax T_T

Brought the kids to Haagen Dazs for ice-cream treats on some weekend. Amberly is such a poser lol. Btw, this was before I went to the saloon to get my hair screwed up by some stranger okay. Hair, I miss you so much T_T

The lips that will put Shiloh Jolie-Pitt to shame. Rofl.

I have no idea why but her lips are usually not this sexy lol but I love it nonetheless. They're so kissable! <3

Current nails design : Mystical pedicure

Bimbo's nails. Pink leopard with crystal stones details. I prefer using stones than acrylic because crystal stones are really more reflective thus prettier. Once you go stone you never look back wtf.

Alright, going to get ready for dinner now. Gosh it's 8:30pm already shit so late already die kthxbye

Some Sunday Ago

Quote of the day :

"Hugs can do great amounts of good, especially for children."

Princess Diana

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Went to Sushi Zento for lunch and then a quick stroll at Gurney Paragon. Amberly was at her Sunday art class.

Kobe Beef.

Hubs a beef lover while I'm a struggling half-vegan. See all the temptations I have to face everyday? 

Soup ramen. 

I'm not really a noodle person but that day I feel like eating this so...yala quite nice also :D

Mushroom and bacon stir fried with butter

This dish is a must-have every time we dine at this place. Simply because I loveeee mushrooms! I love them so much that my friends nicknamed me "Moku" or, mushrooms in Mandarin. I know right. I would have prefer if they give me some other sweet cutesy nick like 'Kinoko' (in Jap) or sexy, alluring ones like 'Goddess of Shrooms'.... 

Nevermind that one give people wrong impression wtf.

Nails of the day

Leopard and red. Saw this on Hannah from Pretty Little Liar and thought of giving it a try. First attempt so I shouldn't expect too much plus I'm thankful I even have time to paint my nails because sometimes I'm so swamped with chores I don't even have time to cut my nails wtf T_T

"See? No cavity!"

Gurney Drive. It's amazing how much this place has changed over the past five years after LGE took over. Before it was super dirty and smelly and polluted with rubbishes I tell you so gross I wouldn't even want to go near it let alone take picture. Anyway, you might think that Isabelle is so manja with me from the way she hug me but actually I forced her to do so one. Hahaha... What to do.. She's a daddy girl :(

That's all for today! Enjoy your weekend!

Putting fame to good use

Quote of the day: 

Talent is God given. Be humble. Fame is man-given. Be grateful. Conceit is self-given. Be careful. - John Wooden

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So I've been following a few popular bloggers on Twitter and Instagram even though, to be honest, I don't like them all. There are a few that I find either too ignorant/bimbo or opinionated. Truth is, I've been following their blogs way before Twitter and Instagram became the "IN" thing and I've seen how they grow and transformed over the years. To put it simple, I've watched how fame and popularity changed them. 

I'm not going to mention any name here since it's just my personal opinions which you are not subject to agree with of course. One of the blogger became a mother yesterday. I used to liked her a lot back when I was in my teenage years and find her writing hilarious especially when she curses at people. But as I grew older I start to realized that she has somehow become very self-centred and I quote her "emotionally detached" from the tragedies in the world. Yet, I was so excited yesterday I keep on checking my Twitter for updates on her newborn and I melted when I saw the little guy. He is so sweet. I was also watching her video tour on her new home the day before and I am so in love with her new home I actually got motivated to clean my house. For 30 minutes. FML. In the end I realized the only way I will ever turned my house into her house is by striking a lottery or getting a new house wtf. 

Back to our topic, she's known to swear and block her followers on Twitter a lot for offering good-intentioned advises or when their opinions differ, ie how it's not encouraged to dye her hair during pregnancy and how it's better to opt for natural instead of a c-sect for faster healing and minimal pain after giving birth and so on. While I do agree that it's our life and thus we are entitled to make our own decision without having know-it-all people forcing their advises on us, I think the swearings, name callings and blocking are uncalled for, except for her haters that call her "bitch/ugly/etc" la. The rest are just well-wishers who care about her and her baby. I know it's annoying having the same advise repeated over and over again but what do you expect when you have almost 150k followers? 150k different advises? And I guess the fact that she is hormonal only make matter worse. 

There is also this time when she confessed to how emotionally detached she have become referring to the war in Gaza and how she can't do anything to change/stop it, that somehow wars will still happen whether you like it or not. She continue to ask if, hypothetically, you have to donate 3k to stop the war, will you do it? And when a few of her readers replied by saying that they will, she couldn't accept and call them immature. And then she went on and on to justify her ignorant statement. One of her fan replied by saying that she (the fan) will not sacrifice her bunny because her bunny's live is too precious. WTF man..

Have these people even seen the heart wrenching pictures from Gaza where innocent children as young as 1 year old were killed mercilessly??? I saw and my heart shattered into a million pieces because I HAVE CHILDREN AND I CAN NEVER IMAGINE SOMETHING SO CRUEL AND PAINFUL HAPPENING TO THEM.

How anybody can be so insensitive and ignorant is just beyond me. 

But what worries me most are the people who defended her for her actions. As if it's not bad enough that one person is being a bad example, we have teenagers (mostly) backing her and joining her in the attack, defending her. Seriously, what is wrong with society nowadays? People saying and doing something to create controversy for the sake of fame and fortune and we have teens cheering and worshiping them for being "true" and "brave"? Personally, I think that there's a fine line between being "true" and "insensitive". You are being true when you are not afraid to show people which political party you support, and you are being insensitive when you say to someone who just lost a loved one "Good riddance". Wait, that's downright vile -.- 

My point is, everyone can be "true" but what makes it different is if we're being true in a good or bad way. I simply cannot tahan famous and influential people endorsing bad behaviour and ignorance. Do they have any idea how every words that they uttered and typed affect people who idolize them? I'm not saying that they should be hardcore activist  or philanthropist like me (I spammed my FB walls with petitions and sad news all the time and the saddest is of 10 petitions that I shared, only 1 person in my list bothered to sign maybe one of it. Sometimes even none :(

I often ask myself "Why are people nowadays so ignorant and selfish? It only takes less than 5 minutes to sign a petition at the comfort of their own space with just a few clicks. Not say ask them to go England to adopt these babies. But why they don't seem to care even the slightest bit? Their heart don't ache when they see all the sufferings in the world? Then why do I get sleepless nights when I stumbled upon a video or news of children being abused and killed? Am I abnormal?" Most of the time I am left to ponder at my own questions.


What I'm trying to say is since when have we become so ignorant and selfish we no longer FEEL and CARE about what is going on in the world beside ourselves? Why do people who have the power to raise awareness on issues don't give a damn about it and why do people like Lady Gaga and Nicki Minaj have so much fans when all they ever do is dressing uniquely (obviously I'm being polite here) and singing senseless songs? We've became so occupied and obsessed with our own life and expectations we forgot to stop and take a look at things that are happening around us and even if we do see something most of us will only choose to ignore. It's very sad :(

Anyway, I hope that now she is a mother, she will be more kind and sympathetic and be more motherly because motherhood plus the right age has certainly changed how I view things and make me care about stuffs that I didn't know existed once. Seriously I used to be so dense about tragedies because I was so caught up in my own life until one day I start to pay attention to news and also thanks to a few animal activist who constantly spam my news feed with statistics and petitions (karma's a bitch, yo). 

Ok I'm done yakking but before I end this post, here's a few famous celebrities-cum-philanthropist/activist/humanitarian that I really love! If only everyone can put their fame and fortune to good use like them. Sigh..

The one and only, Oprah Winfrey. 

If you're surprised please go and bang your head on your wall already thank you.

  

Christina Applegate. 

She was a breast cancer survivor. Why do mishap always happen to good people while those dickhead monsters live up to 100 years old wtf.

 

Hayden Panettiere.

She joined the protest against dolphins killings in Japan and weep while watching them being killed. 

I mean, have you ever shed a tear for an animal??? (and we're not talking about your pet dog here ok)

Angelina Jolie. DUH.

UNICEF ambassador and one of the most committed humanitarian amongst celebrities that I've known.

Although she did not top the list of celebrities who donated the most but the fact that she's donated 50% of her time on a cause that she strongly believes in is good enough for me. 

Have you ever seen Justin Bieber going to Iraq to meet the refugees there? No, right? 

Paul McCartney.

Apparently he is one of the top philanthropists who gives back AND also a vegetarian.

Trust me IT IS a big deal to be a vegan okay and a really tough challenge to resist meat because I'm trying right now and sometimes I just give in to KFC (I know how unhealthy it is so please save the lecture for someone else thank you) or fishes. Ok fine actually I don't think I can ever survive without meat therefore I'm trying to restrict myself to only seafoods T_T 

I know, quite hypocrite lo cos when I see dog lovers in my fb chiding and petitioning against Korea's dog meat but still post pictures of Bak Kut Teh or chicken casserole I feel the same. 

But please cut me some slack and give the poor momma some time.

I need some energy to yell at the monsters.

I'll try! *ties white band around head* 

Khloe Kardashian.

My favorite of all Kardashians!

She helped Peta to campaign against fur and if you watch KUWTK you will remember this episode where she asked Kris Jenner to remove the picture of Kim in a fur hoodie from their house's wall. I love this girl. She's always so real unlike both her sisters and I especially hate Kimmy cos she's so dramatic and good at PR and she wears fur which is so opposite of Khloe and she would do and say anything at all for publicity I'm starting to think that Miss Blogger got her inspiration from KimK.

Repulsive. 

Something Chopra -_-

I'm sorry lah but I'm not that familiar with Bollywood celebrities except for Aishwarya Rai and Shah Ru Khan (is that how you even spell their name?). And something....... Preety and Bachan??

-_________-

But anyway I just like the message that she was trying to send. It's true ok everyone should boycott circuses because if you watch how they train those poor elephants you will feel like the worst consumer ever and if you don't, go have a doctor check to see if you still have a heart =3 

Persia White.

Actually she's not my favorite activist but I like the poster and the message it's trying to send also.

You seriously MUST watch the video of animal skinning process to know how disheartening and inhumane it is. Once, a fanpage against animal cruelty shared a video and I can only bring myself to watch like 30 seconds of it and it's not even gotten to the part where they start to skin the animal alive okay??! 

So fucking sad and barbaric. Those fuckers and people who contributed to the buying.

Rihanna

No she don't give a fucking damn about animals neither has she campaigned for PETA before. I put her up cos I hate her. Even though she's reportedly had donated some money to don't know what children hospital and foundation but she's always wearing fur and tweeting racy and distasteful pictures of herself. One time she tweeted a picture of her wearing fur with the hashtag #petaproblem. Even though she had the picture removed later on but the next day she tweeted this

Can you say remorseless?

  

You see her wear fur more than you pick your nose.

So her actions are very contradicting lo. How can anyone care about children but support slaughtering of animals for vanity? 

Doesn't make sense at all.Therefore I can safely conclude that she's just donating to boost her reputation cos she only donated like once the most twice throughout her entire career life lo.

Also, Lady Gaga. 

(Ranked second in my list for most hated celebrity. First is Nicki Minaj.)

This one needs the least elaboration. Just Google her up can already. 

Beside always literally endorsing fur/meat, also teach people nonsense, wear ugly shoes and sit in a 24k gold wheelchair after her hip injury and surgery.

Hou yao yeng meh?!

Glamorous and extraordinary my ass.

Anywayssssssssss, I've saved the best for last! 

IAN SOMERHALDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111

ZOMG somebody please kill me alreadyyy. He is the reason why I even consider reincarnating as a stray dog (provided if I die before he does la of course and yes I'm a Buddhist you have problem?). 

My sister and I are so head over heels in love and smitten with this man after a long and endless debate on who gets to fantasize about him we've agreed on co-owning -_- 

Though I'm trying to convince her to be his non-existent imaginary wife while I be the mistress because usually mistress are more loved and spoiled. Muahahaha. 

Dream on, bitch.

Back on track, I follow him on Twitter and he's all about animals and climate change and preserving the earth and so on. He even have his own foundation and it's called Ian Somerhalder Foundation ! 

Beauty with a caring heart :') I'm trying very hard to deny the fact that he's taken and he loves his girlfriend very much.

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I hate you, Nina Dobrev!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *cries blood*

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Alright, these are just the few of many. Some I don't want to put up their pictures up because I cannot accept that they also got do charity lorh! Like Justin Bieber and Lady Gaga ALTHOUGH Justin Bieber donated the least according to Forbes. Like 0.02% of his total assets!! Fucker. And apparently some celebrities do charity for publicity wtf. Forbes say one arh, not me. So since I hate JB and LG I will just assume that they are in that category along with Rihslutna :D 

Ok damn long post I can go and sleep now wtf 3:58am already T_T

I'm back!

Sorry for the long absence! I've been caught up with so many things I don't even know which one to attend to first but I figured blogging will be the last! I mean I love writing in moi tiny little space but since no one's reading (I think???! O_O), it.can.wait. Anyway, I'm going to skip on the reasons and just summarize them into bullet points :

• My eldest brother got married in December! I was so excited I ended up buying more dresses than I needed because when I thought I've found THE dress, I come across another THE dress FML. Anyway doesn't matter what dress I wore because stupid PMS ruined it! I had been on a diet prior the wedding because I wanted to look good because I know there's going to be like people from my parent's kampung to our kampung basically everyone that I know and don't even know is going to be there. So my diet seems to be working and I was so excited and all UNTIL I realized my period is going to be 3 days before the wedding and that means BLOATEDNESS to the MAX fmlfmlfml. I looked like I was having a pau in the oven T_T Actually nola I was being dramatic what I meant is I didn't look like what I pictured myself to be lorh. I looked, well, not thin :( When are scientists going to invent a pill that stops menstruation but yet still makes us fertile and able to conceive, huh?! It's so freaking unfair and I HATE period. Period.

Me and my chao ah beng. LOL.

• I adopted a dog in October from Petfinder and gave up for adoption on Petfinder again 3 weeks later -_- Okay, before you start accusing me of being a bad owner and undeserving of pet or any living thing at all, I have reasons okay. She was a 3 month old Jack Russell crossed with no-idea-what but I didn't care because I've wanted a dog so badly and I know the kids are going to love it too. 

This was when I just got her home

This was after 3 weeks

 See how different she looked in just 3 weeks time? I nurtured her with love and time even though I hardly have time to comb my own hair fml. She was a very smart dog. Seriously, she learned 'sit' in like 5 minutes and fetch in less than 30 minutes ( talking about her now is making me emo wtf) It took me almost 2 weeks to potty trained her and that means bringing her out to the balcony 4 times a day and sit there for a whole 45minutes while I wait for her to eliminates and then cheer like as if I hit the jackpot. She was smart, obedient and not to mention, adorable. So what is the problem? 

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Isabelle is allergy to dogs. 

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WHY??????????????~!

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 It started with a minor cough and flu and then it worsen and developed into Pneumonia. Her blood was taken and she was x-rayed and then we were told that her blood was also infected with a type of virus called Mycoplasma. In severe cases it could go up to the brain and caused death! We were devastated and worried sick and her peds insisting an admittance only make matter worse. At this point I got very angry with her previous peds that we've been bringing her to because he didn't do a thorough examination and also refused to prescribe a cough syrup for her despite me keep on telling him about it. He let it deteriorated into THIS. Anyway, she got admitted for 8 days and during this time I have to juggle between my baby and the dog because the husband isn't really fond of her. The dog, not his baby obviously. So imagine this : Me having to go home in between taking care of Isabelle only to find the dog dirty and smelly in her cage because she's stepped on the poops and it's all over the place. Not only I have to clean her up, I also have to clean her cage up and it's like fucking hard to clean okay with shits stuck in between tiny metal wires. Cleaning up was one thing but what I couldn't tolerate was the look on her face when I'm leaving the house again. She looked so sad :( I feel awful for having to neglect her but it's not like I had a choice. But anyway, long story short, after some very serious thinking, I decided to give her to someone who is more available, physically and mentally. Also, adoption is the only option as I can't risk letting Isabelle contracted the virus again. The moment I put her profile up on Petfinder my phone got bombarded with calls and texts I didn't even have time to reply them all. Eventually I gave her to a uni student who is staying in Subang Jaya and she's been keeping me updated from time to time with pictures and videos of her. Phew. 

On a sidenote, a week later I saw a news that was circulating on Facebook and it was about this 1 year old baby who also got infected with Mycoplasma and it went to her brain and after a surgery to release the pressure in her skull, they touched a nerve and she became half-paralysed! I was FLABBERGASTED. To think that my baby just recovered from the exact virus and what could've possibly happen if we didn't have it diagnosed early. I looked at the picture of the little girl laying in the hospital bed unconscious with bandages around her head and her face was swollen from the surgery and I thought to myself "This could have been my baby." My heart shattered just looking at the picture. If God really does exist, this is one of the many things that I will never understand why He let happen. Tragic happening to pure, innocent child :( I pray that against all odd and impossibilities, she will recover from it and go back to being a happy and playful child.